As of this moment the official count-down to Maine is: 3 days, 18 hours, 17 minutes and 2 seconds. I am so excited for the upcoming trip that I can hardly focus on getting the things done that I need to do! Of course, in typical Amanda fashion it’s easy for me to find …
Feels like forever since I took a moment to sit and write out the goings on in my life. There’s lots to be said but I’m awfully tired and have to be up early for work tomorrow. A narrow list (so that I can remember the next time I decide to take a moment and …
It was so hot and sticky when I left work this evening. I settled in for my ride home and was almost instantly moved to tears. You see, I’ve cried for Carrie a lot lately. Mostly in the shower in the mornings and on my ride home. Tonight I don’t even know what it was …
Yesterday I was stressed. Like really, really really stressed. Lover asked me where it was coming from and I answered very honestly that I have no idea. Here’s what I did learn about myself yesterday though. When I’m stressed I feel vulnerable and when I’m vulnerable I’m immediately defensive and when I’m defensive I strike. …
I met my best friend Carrie in a psychiatric hospital in Leesburg, Virginia 1995. I was sixteen and she was just one year older than I. She arrived late in the evening, it was February and she was on suicide watch. I was hanging out with the nurses, not something I should have done but …
“But I’d long ago learned not to be picky in farewells. They weren’t guaranteed or promised. You were lucky, more than blessed, if you got a good-bye at all.” — Sarah Dessen How ironic is it that the hardest decision we’ve had to make for our beloved Petunia is the kindest and most caring one …
Our girl had a less then perfect weekend. Yesterday was the worst; hiding, inappetent, sneezing and nausea. Petunia’s original doctor (and my friend) was working this weekend so we called her and got her on an antibiotic and an anti-nausea injection. This makes for 3-4 shots a day! We knew she was feeling bad when …
Our Petunia’s cancer has relapsed. It seems that four weeks after she went into remission, Petunia is sick again. There were not very many noticeable signs, actually hardly any…except maybe she was not eating as much as she was the week before. Cancer is so ugly. Just recently my beloved’s father was diagnosed with colon …
Carrie would have been so thrilled to see me in church yesterday. We left very early to make sure that even with traffic we would make it on time. (I should preface that to say that Jennifer and I are never on time for anything, except maybe supper.) I haven’t been up that early …
everything lovely & good 